A Letter to my Son…

My Darling C,

You’re 5 today! A mini-milestone on this happy journey of Life. Five is a good age – for you and for me πŸ˜‰ you’re old enough to take those first wobbly steps towards independence and young enough to still let me hold your hand! And how I adore that walking hand-in-hand! It makes me feel loved and useful and special in a way nothing else can! And we are name-buddies too! We are both named for Happiness and to me that’s the most miraculous thing – a sign that ‘this was meant to be!’ πŸ™‚ I’ll tell you more about why someday.

You’re not going to understand most of this letter until much later, when you’re older and hopefully wiser, but I’m really writing it now, for me. I won’t fill it with any advice other than to say, “Play hard, Laugh often and Mind your manners!” If you can do that now, you’ll have an easier time of it when you’re older and the going gets tough, as it inevitably will. Laughter will always help even if you’re just pretending! It’s a cleanser and healer and often you’ll feel better even when you don’t want to πŸ˜› Besides we have a tradition of laughter in our family…our guffaws are legendary!! Don’t let me down now πŸ˜‰

So often during these 5 years, I’ve wanted to time-freeze you! Keep you from growing up and cling tenaciously to your innocence for a while longer. Oh! I know, it’s a fool’s dream…but tell that to my Mommy heart πŸ˜‰ I remember wanting to stay the ‘same’ myself too! I didn’t want to turn into a mother who cannot see, think or live beyond her children. It may work for some, but not for me. I was so afraid of losing my ‘self’ that I was blinded to the possibility that you would just ‘enhance’ that ‘self’ – give it layers and depth and meaning without disturbing its core essence. And for that I thank you and bow to the wisdom of this ancient Universe that has made it so πŸ™‚ Yes! you’ve altered my life irrevocably but I’m still ‘me’ – just a better version πŸ˜‰ Oh I know you’re going to think I’m a loon speaking gibberish and you’re right but someday you will understand – both the gibberish and the immense importance of indulging your loony side πŸ˜‰

Raising you has been a life-altering experience! After B, you’re the only one in this whole entire universe who holds the key to my heart. I wish you could have known him…the two of you would have been inseparable, although I think you already are! Ever so often i see him shining through your eyes and i know then i am doubly blessed to have loved you both! You make me laugh and cry and tear my hair out in frustration πŸ˜‰ You brought the joy of play back into my life at the bleakest of times and I’ve never looked back since. Your smile is more effective than any nuclear missile – use it wisely πŸ˜‰ As for your tantrums – well since you’ve learnt them from me, how can I possibly complain? πŸ˜›

I’m so very proud of you and of the fact that I am your Mom. I’m enjoying every moment of our journey together and I can only hope you are too! You are many things to me my darling – my joy, my hope, my love, my faith, my gratitude, my teacher, but most of all you are my blessing from the Universe and I want you to know that I love you with all my heart – always and forever.

For Caivu's 5th Birthday1


❀❀❀❀❀ Love forever after, Mamma.❀❀❀❀❀ 

13 thoughts on “A Letter to my Son…

    I did not realize how time has flown though I have watched you grow thanks to modern technology.I have not been physically present all these wonderous years that your mom so beautifully describes ,but I know exactly how it must be.
    Your mom is such a person who enriches not only her own family unit but that of everyone who knows her and brings alive all those special moments we have shared with our children but has not been able to express so well.
    I salute the two of you and Shiva too.
    Waiting to see you and hope this year will be a special one ……London awaits you my dear.

    Lots of love

    1. Aaa aw… Thank you and a BIG HUG to you Beena Aunty πŸ™‚ I can’t wait to meet you soon πŸ˜€

      Thanks Beenz πŸ™‚ Your words and the love they come with always make my DAY!!!!!

  2. You must be a fantastic mother! I cannot imagine that your son wouldn’t enjoy this when he’s old enough to “get” it. Hope his birthday celebration was a blast!

  3. Ten years ago, I would have felt exactly as you do now I imagine πŸ™‚ Amu is 15 now!! I can’t believe it.
    First of all, I absolutely adore all the pictures you’ve included in this post H…..little Caivalya (is that his pet name?) is a jaan to be sure, esp in his prince (or is it god?) attire!
    Interesting to know that both your names mean Happiness….I love the significance you give to that emotion.
    Loved the special birthday post, and the haiku πŸ™‚ Hugs and much love to both of you!

    1. Time flies na M??!!! They grow up and sprout wings and leave the nest all in the time it takes to blink…well that’s how it feels to us Moms πŸ˜› Caivalya Ishaan are his two names…we call him Caivu and I write using Ishaan πŸ™‚ I love that picture too…taken on his 2nd Birthday! He’s dressed as Lord Krishna and although he didn’t enjoy it much then, he loves Krishna ( in cartoon form of course!) today πŸ˜‰

      Hugs from Caivu and moi ❀

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